A year ago tomorrow, the 19th. of march 2007, I lost my best friend of 10yrs to what I shall simply call an aneurysm. Tomorrow the 19th of march 2008 my other best friend goes in for brain surgery to remove a massive brain tumor. I have a HORID cold and Morning noon and night sickness. Family is causing major grief over who gets us for Easter. Logan won't stay out of trouble at school. I have no idea whats going on with Drew thanks to his dad and his dads GF. Mason won't sleep at night no matter what I do. I...just...want to die. I can't take anymore. I can't give anymore. I feel used up and flat. empty. lost. hopeless. petty. selfish. weak. worthless.
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wildrose80
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you can take more. think about how often you HAVE taken more, and then realize this is small potatoes.
you can give more. you do by waking up and being a wife and mother and friend. even when you don't think you give, you do.
and while you may feel used up and flat know that you are not. you are just down. and soon you'll be up. that's just how it works.
and though you feel empty you are not, and though you feel lost you are not, and though you feel hopeless there is hope. you are not petty, you are not selfish, you are not week and you are nowhere near worthless.
you, my friend, are tired.
and you have every right to be.
it's time you sat down with syd, told him you are about to implode, and then he will help you by being on your side. at that point you should tell the families to fuck right off because you are having easter alone, and that every holiday they make a fuss about will be spent without their grandchildren.
also put some rum in the kids milk.
just kidding...
but not really.
Rum... in kids milk?
That's crazy!
It will curdle! :D